It’s only been a year, yet today feels just as heavy as the day he left. Some words still sit too deep to say out loud, so I keep them close instead.
This is an ode to my brother — a memory I still carry, a conversation that never truly ended, and a promise that time cannot erase him from us. The world keeps moving forward, but a part of us remains where he is, remembering him today and always.
The beach, the footsteps, the distance… it sometimes feels like a dream where I still catch sight of him walking just ahead. Not gone — only farther down the shore.
A friend once asked if I had healed from the loss. I said, some days yes, most days I’m not sure. Maybe grief never really leaves us; maybe we just learn how to walk alongside it. And maybe, somewhere beyond this life, we’ll find each other again.
I wrote these words then used Suno AI to breath music to it, thought it captured how I really felt. What used to live quietly in my notes and thoughts is now something I can finally share with anyone who has lost someone they love and learned how to keep living while carrying their absence every day.
Here’s the full lyrics:
Marami pa sana akong gustong sabihin
mga maliliit na kuwento lang.
Mga nangyari ngayong araw,
isang biro na sana’y iki’natawa mo.
At na-a-alala kita…
Napanuod ko yung isang pelikula
Alam ko magugustuhan mo din sya
at mala’mang marami kang tanong
o syang pang-asar mo lang..
At na-a-alala kita…
Tuloy ang pag-ikot ng orasan
at dahan-dahan kang isinama
sa hangin ng mundong umiinog
gaya ng dapat nitong gawin
Pero may mga araw
di mapigilan
humihinto pa rin ang mundo
sa ala-ala mo.
Heto sumikat uli ang umaga
May mga bagong kwento
Mga dati mong paborito
Ngayo’y akin na din
At na-a-alala kita…
Iba ang plano Nya (siguro)
Alam kong malaya ka na
Wala ng takot, sakit
O pangamba
Ipikit ko lang uli mata ko
Pagtayo, handa na
Okay lang kame, bro
patuloy lang ako.